New Year New Resolution

Another year has gone. Past few years, never really write down a list of new year resolution, thinking of doing one for 2009.

I think the main things would be :
1. No procrastination
2. Adhere to Punctuality Rules
3. Sleep Early
4. Eat Healthy
5. Fighter Spirit

I guess that would be the main list.
Take a chance, make a change.
May it all be well in this new year.

Happy New Year! :)

Looking for a new place to eat and hang out?

I love to eat..haha..like anyone of you maybe. :P Hopefully this little post will promote this little place to the minority who happens to read my blog and pass the "let's try it out" message to all the eaters out there :D

This new place is Kelana Jaya Plaza.. Kelana Jaya Plaza is new and it is really really a nice place. And it's such as shame that during my dinner there, I didn't bring my camera that I'm not able to post any of the photos here. The place is very breezy at night as beside of it is the lake and erm, as it is still very new that there're not enough crowd yet even though there're a few restaurants and pubs have been opened there. It is no doubt a great place to hang out with your friends by the lake, enjoying the environment and drinks. ;)

The first restaurant that I would like to recommend is Blue Dragon. It has one restaurant in Cheras and now it has opened another branch in Kelana Jaya Plaza. Blue Dragon has got very authenthic thai cuisine, nice tomyum, nice fried rice and dishes to be UATed by you guys and promote to more and more people to bring the crowd to the place. And and and...Louisiana, western cuisine restaurant. The western cuisine is wow (by the look of the menu, haven't tried it out yet) It has appealing ambience, music and environment. :)

The remaining is left for you to explore and UAT. :P So what i'm doing here is, hoping that it will bring more crowd to this nice-setup plaza which will add as another hang out place to all of us. :D

P/S: Not holding any shares in Blue Dragon or Louisiana :D Promoting it coz I love to enjoy nice food so much, that I hope that they can maintain so that I can go back to eat again! :P

Free Time Out of Bound

I have been very busy and occupied for the last couple of weeks. Suddenly in my life, I feel very exhausted, that I can't find a time to sit down and relax and to keep on feeling that there're still a lot of things listed in my to-do list, that I can't just stop but keep on rushing for the tasks.

Busy and busy and busy, and realised that you didn't have much of the time for yourself. Doing something good for yourself, go on a trip, pamper yourself with good spa maybe...sit down and enjoy a cuppa coffee without having to rush to your next destination. What each of us is having now is called, busy city life.

Daily activities makes you swerve to the left and right that you might suddenly forgotten which way you're actually heading to. From time to time, make a stop at the pit stop to review and recheck, make sure you're still on the track, and then there you go again.

Merry Christmas to everyone, may everyone of us have a good year ahead. :)

Blogging

It feels like it has been ages since I last posted in my blog. :D
Recently have been so busy, and I have always wanted to post something here from the time that I went back to my hometown, there're so many things that I wanted to jot down in here. All of the things that I wanted to share and write, I've been keeping inside my heart. Wanted to put in my experience driving back to my hometown the first time, the flood in kelantan, the food I had in kelantan...so much more..

So glad that I'm able to sit down and write this blog, expressing myself here. I always thought about putting what I felt, what I saw and experienced here throughout my daily life, hoping that one day, my children would be able to come around here and spend some time reading them. In case I might have forgotten what I wanted to tell them or maybe something which I can't easily express it verbally. :) So that some important stories or lesson that I've learned would not be left untold.

Generation by generation. I believe that there're many stories which were not told or might have been forgotten by my grandparents and parents. My grandmum managed to tell me some part of her and grandpa's love story before she past away. If they started blogging at that time, then I would be reading a lot about their stories. :P

So keep on blogging, keep on writing, keep on recording, be the author of your own story. ;)

Back Home

Back at home at last. :) Glad to be home, but I "kit teung" what is to be missed in bkk. :P

Plenty of stuffs to be done. Bills and bills, house chores... :) Going off for 1 month, back to attend to the many things. Kind of having many i/o last few weeks and the weeks before, starting to get thirsty for a cuppa "breakfree".

It's end of the year, I think most of us are getting annual leave to be somewhere in the world. So enjoy and enjoy and enjoy! :D (think i'm going crazy)

Ok, for those who's still around here, no plans of taking leaves yet, let's have a little fun with...



http://www.photofunia.com

Working Life in Bangkok - Next Plane Home

This month being in Bangkok, have been the fullest after so long. :) Have been bz with work activities, bringing colleagues around bkk. :) I would be on the next plane home tomorrow and I'm surely going to miss this place like I always do.
I went around places that I have used to go, visited the familiar food stalls and shops, eating food that I miss a lot, meeting people whom I'm familiar with, no doubt it's indeed like a second home here.

Listening to banana fm, thai radio station. They play the hottest thai songs. :) I'm going to miss Centre Point, Guai Lou's fried rice, Yu Fah's Som Tum, Khao Phat Poo, Cha Keow + Nes, Sirocco, Noodle Soup, Chatuchak, Duck Noodles, Coffee Beans's cheese cake...seems like uncountables, and I'm going to miss Loy Kra Thong. Ok, I'm going to miss a lot of the things I like here. I'm coming back, coming back to travel surely.

See you again bkk, will be seeing you again. :)

Working Life in Bangkok - I Miss K

Yeah..I miss K..Singing K. :D And now I'm singing along with the MTV over the TV, hopefully my roomate don't feel annoying. haha...It's good you know when you sing K, coz you can express all of your feelings along with the song, let it flow..let it flow..
and the mtv is playing all those famous old pop songs..oh my god..here i go...i'm going to sing K when I'm back to KL...There're K lounge here in bkk, but then of course mostly thai songs..just manage to "pian zhiak" sing a few thai songs..so..cannot go..
So I sing along with MTV during the nights when I miss K...

Working Life in Bangkok - It's State Tower :)

I always like this place. Like it a lot. :) Brought my colleagues up to state tower 2 days ago, glad that they enjoyed hanging out there. With the nice martinis, nice Bangkok view from 64th floor, nice ambience and nice music. Anything that you can ask for to feel nice and easy to hang out with friends. :)

There're sofas for you to sit around comfortably, but most of the time they would be occupied, that's why we had to stand and waited for our drinks before we brought our drinks to the skybar. The skybar's a little bit extended out where we could take sips from our drinks while enjoying the view.

Jazz..yes, they have jazz music playing. Jazz band. :) I like it when the jazz singer started to sing, it somehow turns on the romantic ambience..nicee.. :)
Didn't manage to take photos, but do check out Auyong's blog for the photos.
Siu Keong

Here's a little photo of state tower which I've taken long time ago. :)

Working Life in Bangkok - Renovated

Centre Point is fully renovated. :) When I left a year ago, the lobby was just renovated and they're just starting renovating the room. I came into the room..and whow, it's nice, especially the lighting. The right lighting always makes people feel warm and welcomed. :) Take a look at the renovated room.

Working Life in Bangkok - Back Late Today

One of the photos that I've taken last year. It's Mc D in Bangrak. Behind, it's the State Tower.

I'm still full, can't go to sleep yet. Came back late today, didn't know what to eat, so I walked to Mc D to get the nuggets. Mc D and KFC always be the options in Bangkok when I don't know what to eat, cause they're just next to my apartment. Actually, I don't feel hungry, just that, if I don't eat, my head will keep on telling me that I'm hungry, that I should be eating something, end up eating even more. :D

In and out of apartment these few days, I have managed to meet some "old friends". Haha. I'm glad that the hotel staffs, they still remember me. They saw me and would be greeting, "Sawasdee kap", "Se Bai Dee Mai?", "Kap ma tam ngan lor?" I have not been meeting them for 1 and a half year. And they're still with Centrepoint, and I'm still with Silverlake. :P Anyway, I'm very glad to see them around. :)

Alright, gotta be going to bed now. Ready for a busy day tomorrow...

Working Life in Bangkok - Back to Bkk

At last, I'm able to online! Whew..the connection in Centrepoint has been changed to wireless connection. Have been trying to connect to the network since 9 till now. It is still not so stable yet, on and off, my roomate's wireless signal is ok, maybe my wireless reception is not that good.

I'm in Bkk now. When I just got reached, then I started to see the familiar faces, the familiar language and the familiar weather. Everything is the same, just that the place to take the taxi in airport has changed. The toll has gone up and so as the meter rate. I came to Centrepoint and checked into my room. Wow, they have already renovated the room. It was in the nicest colour, white. Nicee..

Bangrak, the place that I stay at is still the same, traffic jam.

期待回来

明天就要走了。又是另外一个working trip to Bangkok. 对这地方，都算是蛮熟悉了。大家都说是“天堂“。嗯，应该说是去旅游真的是很好，我在那里都工作了2年多了，没什么感觉了. :)
Working Travel了差不多4年，感觉都有点累了。就是缺少了那种归属感吧。倒是希望可以留下来，在这里的感觉好很多。 :) 也许人老了，priority 不同了，想法也不同了，没什么时间可浪费，就是希望可以停留在一个地方，有时间，可到处旅游，和家人，亲人，朋友在一起，过正常些的life, 做自己想做的事情。这样的想法，从1年前开始，慢慢的变得更加强烈了。
这样游子的生活，是时候放弃了。:)

在Bangkok,工作的时间应该都有2年多。都没有记载过我的Working Life In Bangkok. 这次might be最后一次，到Bangkok工作，当游子，所以应该会在这个trip记载一些些关于在这里的生活吧。

我会好想，好想，好想，好想在Malaysia的一切。 :) 期待回来的心情。

Potraits

Never got a chance to take potrait of my own. Then I asked my sisters to help me to take using my camera. I had to bring out a mirror and check and ask my sister to half press, focus...haha....quite expensive for photographer and studio..so tried my own camera..but not using potrait lense..and without tripod..that's why a bit blur :D

Rain rain go away...

It's raining again. So as the mood. Helplessly I, got emotional when it rains. Many thoughts come running in my mind. Can't stop..so I'm waiting for the sun to come out again.
Glad that I have my guitar. It has been accompanying me when I was sick and through some unhappy and happy time. So it does during rainy days. :)
Since it's raining, I played the little "voodoo" song called Rain Rain Go Away. Whenever it rains, I thought of this song, then I sing in my heart, hoping that the rain will go away soon...
Forgive me for trying to bring away your cozy cooling rainy day. :)

Rain rain go away
Come again some other day
Rain rain go away
Bring my love a sunny day

Your Body is a Wonderland

Title may sound absurd, but it's guitar that I'm referring to. :) Have been having the thoughts of taking the photo of my guitar at home for quite sometime, until that day, I managed to pick up the cam and take a few shots. I've set up a small photoblog inside the glass house, thrashing my photos in.
Glass House

Life, oh life

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted. A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle"
Morrie Schwartz

We're sometimes in the confusion of our age. What we are doing might not be what we wanted all the time. We might tend to ask many questions, over think about it that we're so obsessed with all the doubts.

We're standing in the middle, thinking which sides will win.
Morrie said, love wins. Love will always wins.
Hope that by thinking this way, it somehow will lift up your spirit, accept it and keep on fighting. :)

Sharing

You can't find the answers for the many things in life from the book. Things in life are complicated, I never realised about that before working life. Blogging has in fact turned out to be helpful, when you've got noone to speak to, or you just need a place, a space for you to express what is choked inside your lung or heart. Eventually, it turned out to be a place where I wanted to share things with all of you, and maybe my children next time, in case, I just couldn't remember to tell them everything. :)

So, here I am, wanted to share with you "Tuesdays with Morrie". It's this little book by Mitch Albom. Stated on the cover - An old man, a young man, and life's greatest lesson. I believe that when you see this sentence, you might think, well, another philosopher type of book, then might just toss it away. Not sure whether sharing quote and information in this book is illegal, but em, the book is not made of very good quality paper, it might have been eaten by silverfish after a few years. So I would take the risk. :)

I'm looking forward to spend the time writing it down in the next blog. :)

Runaway..

无名的怒火 有说不出的无力想敲打我自己
麻木的神经 感觉自己像个机器快不能呼吸
火辣的太阳 永远在前方 无尽的公路 无尽的追求

像困在雾里 焦躁的想从茫然的现实中逃离
淡掉的感情 还坚持下去又有什么意义
风吹乱头发 黑暗星空下 无尽的公路 无尽的自由

我需要 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
甩开一切无所谓 就快去 run away run away
我可以 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
是为自己不为谁 不在乎的 run away

很多人再说 不断的一直说 必须这样子做 不能够那样做
却又没有办法在自己的生命中突破
如果再不走 就永远不会走 别让自己再回头 没挣扎怎能够有自由 快走

现在就 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
甩开一切无所谓 run away run away
快点去 run away run away 不想再怀疑自己对不对
是为自己不为谁 不在乎的 run away

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像他说的潇洒，生命中应该很少吧？
有多少人不犹豫，多少人不害怕失去？

愿你我都有勇气面对一切。

Got myself a love song compilation CD :)

After work today, I went to One U, planning to look for John Mayer's new album. The sales person told me that it's not out yet. End up, I was listening to Stevie Wonder's album and found the song 'My Cherie Amour', which I've been looking around. Then I saw another album with this song, but it's with other love songs. Very seldom I would be getting myself a love song compilation cd :) But then at last, I bought it. :)

2 CDs with all the familiar love songs. Quite a nice compilation. Soothing love song, for you to play at home and then sing along while you're ironing your clothes or doing your laundry. :D

It's 8 August, 2008

080808. an auspicious date for us, Chinese, and also a date to be remembered by everyone who has lived through this day. Needless to say, it's the Olympics 2008 at Beijing, China.

I will always remember the opening ceremony as the astounding one, full with surprises and chinese culture, and beautifully prepared, especially the most anticipated part, how the torch was lit up, really cool..In whichever way, it really does show Chinese can do it. :) I was in Hainan watching the Olympics over the tv, and kept on "wow wow wow..". Can't imagine if I ever get the chance to watch Olympics opening ceremony live at the stadium. Maybe, the next Olympic, which will be held at London. :P

I'm glad that all of us are able to see this event. :)
Let's celebrate this moment, go go olympics!

Night like this

11 something and yet, don't feel like sleeping. I don't like sleeping too early, always thought that it's a waste of time...funny though..Always wait till I get tired or sleepy, then I will be willing to climb up the bed and Zzzz...

Tonight, don't have mood for nothing. Suddenly, "Everytime I Close My Eyes" comes into my mind. I think it surely is an all time favourite love song to many people. Babyface has got his own unique song and this song has got it's own calming effect. Always hoping for a good hi-fi system, playing all kinds of songs, in my favourite room. :)

How nice would it be if I can have my speaker now with me, then I would be able to fill this whole room with the song, clear voice, and sharp saxaphone. It would be so so nice.

How's your night? :)

The Bucket List

In the movie, it was said that old time Egyptians believe that at the entrance to heaven, they will be asked 2 questions. These 2 questions will determine whether they are allowed to heaven.

"Do you find joy in your life?"
"Do you bring joy to anyone in your life?"

What will be your answer?

Living your life with what you want, getting what you want. We're flowing with the stream, adapting to changes, changing ourselves according to what most people need, and what the society is responding to. The peer pressure, the fear of being left behind. Is this what we care about? Or we have no choice, and that's what we should care about? Are we just the fishes, following the stream?

I think most people won't choose to know when they will die if given the chance. Do you? Maybe I will try to write myself a bucket list, (influenced by this movie) and see what I will get in the list and how long will it be :)

Quite a useful trick

Read about this. Not sure how true is it, as never tried :P We can use our body to boost signal. For example, we can use our hand on radio to boost or clarify the signal. Another thing which will help us is, when trying to locate our car at the carpark. Normally, we would tend to stretch your arm and press the alarm. To amplify your alarm signal, you can use body-as-extended-antenna trick by putting it under your chin and press the button. It is said to be able to boost the alarm signal and locate your car. Try it out. ;)

The Last Lecture from Randy Pausch

I've finished reading this book. And I would really recommend it to everybody. The word used is simple and easy to understand. Easily you will be going through a few chapters without knowing. Randy Pausch really keep it simple for the readers. The most important thing is, what he shared with the readers.

He's a professor in Carnegie Mellon Uni and is diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. His doctor told him that he would have 6 healthy months if he's lucky. This would be the saddest thing to accept and yet he took the chance to hold this presentation - The Last Lecture.

He talked about his childhood dreams, doubts that anyone of us would have faced, the life and the right attitude towards anything in life. I think I would not be able to describe how inspiring and how I've changed my thoughts over certain things, but one thing for sure, it has affected me in such a positive way.

Life is short that you might not even realised that you did not appreciate the gift, which is time. "Stupidly", I always reminded myself yet I admit that you and I do sometimes let it slips away too, right? But the most important thing is, we have the courage to take the effort to make things better. :)

To myself and everyone that I care about,
Take away the ego, cause it's not going to do any good.

Appreciate life, cause that's what we have at the present.

When you feel your life has no meaning, think about people who struggles to survive.

When you're giving up yourself, think about the people who never give up on you.

Take away the negative thoughts, cause it's not going to do any good.

Love yourself, cause that's how you pass the love to others.

When you feel troubled, put the trouble in the trouble bucket. Cause it will only pulls you down. Switch your attention to something you like. Only conquer it when your mood bar has gone green.

Be happy, cause that's what makes the world beautiful.
Cheers!

http://thelastlecture.com

Nostalgic

I guess I would consider myself a little bit nostalgic. Are you? Sometimes you just heard a song, read a book, saw a photo and suddenly it seemed to have taken you back to some place, some time or some moments. It might be something that make you laugh, make you feel sad, or make you feel so happy that you wish that you can go back once again. But what we can do is, sharing the happiness, the story with someone. :)

Thai songs, they got me nostalgic. :P

Don't worry if you get nostalgic over something. At least it proves something. You're still remembering things.
You have been through time of your life.

不一定

昨天吃午饭的时候，朋友说到“一定”这个话题。之后我们就说到“世事无绝对”。
还记得还在读书的时候，有好多时候，都会用到“一定”这字眼。
出来工作了，发现原来好多事情，是不一定的呢。有好多事情，都谈不上 Absolute.
在这里，我指的不是挑战法律的事情。

出来工作的也谈不上长，但是也看过及体会过一些事。有时候，并不是你不想让它变得“不一定”，而你在不同的阶段，不同的情况，身在其中的你会对某些事做适当的调整。
不是说你失去坚持，而是时代的改变，年龄的增长，经过的每件事，让你对某些事也可能会改观。

不一定每件事都要一个解释
不一定天堂里住着一位天使
不一定要大哭才能诉说心事
不一定小心翼翼就不会走失
不一定某件事都有某个方式
不一定他就是你的白马王子
不一定要无聊才一直看电视
（戴佩妮 - 不一定）

Orangie

Three little kittens. Orangie, Blackie, Stripie. They were the newborns of my neighbour's cat. Have been waiting for the moments to be able to take some close up pictures of them. They have grown up so fast. These are the moments to be able to play around with them. Wait till they are big, they will no longer that active. Just managed to capture photos of orangie, as it seems to be more active than the other two. The look that he gave was so cool, as if he knew how to pose like the models.

2008 5 12 1428

These 3 days were declared as National Mourning Day. Most of the main websites in China have changed their websites to black and white. TV showing most updated news from the earthquake sites. I think I couldn't express how bad and sad the incident is as it must have affected us deep down, when looking at the news and pictures.

I see "Blood thicker than water". Everyone is saddened, everyone is trying their best to help, everyone is supportive to everybody, everyone is encouraging each other, everyone is praying to relieve the pain from the affected and wish that the difficulties will end very soon.

I thought about how some other people in this world, trying their best to create havoc, trying their best to cause pain to people around them, trying their best to create war and still never stop. In this disaster we see how people unite while there're people in this world who tried to seperate its own people. Is it because they are lucky not to have disasters to worry about? That they have the extra time to express their ego, express their dissatisfaction and their power? As the chinese saying, 唯恐天下不乱。

Whoever we are, we should learn to appreciate. Appreciate that we have the heart, the salvation and the hands which can help and build. Appreciate the life and time that we have. :)

Let's pray for the best.

In one of those nights

Taken one year ago. One of the photos that I've managed to take of this special building. The view up here looks so quiet where the market down the State Tower is very much a busy place in Bangkok. It reminded me of the quiet nights where I can simply see this building from my room. It reminded me of the ambience that I love, with the jazz and the winds.

Paradox

Dad passed me a photostated paper when I was at home that day. On top, it's written, "The Paradox of Our Time". He said that the paper was by his colleague, who had photostated a few copies and distributed around. He asked me to read it. Since it's highly recommended to be read by this uncle who take the effort to distribute it around, I think there must be something in the text that he somehow agrees with. So, I read... :)

Paradox. Kind of complicated it maybe.

Anyway, here it is, if you're interested. :P
http://garywolff.com/paradox.html

Lazy Sunday

It has been raining recently. The road is quite dirty which makes it hard to walk. It was gloomy just now, and the sun has just come out to "energize" the people on the road. I always like sunny day.

Try Jack Johnson. It goes very well with this lazy sunday.. :)

http://www.myspace.com/jackjohnsonmusic

Now Everyone Can Fly

Soaring across the land...



Through the clouds...



In the midst of Turbulence...



In the clouds...



Looking out the window...

Quite glad that they sky is quite blue that I'm able to take these photos. Blue sky, white clouds, nice.

What do you say?

同样的瓶子，你为什么要装毒药呢？同样的心理，你为什么要充满烦恼呢？

有些人把每件事情都想得很简单，有些人却把每件事情都想得彻底，想得复杂。烦恼的占据力量也许很大，可是也不能让它扩展，对吗？当你为一件事开始在烦恼着，固执的心态只会让你没完没了，抱着它不放手。不知不觉的你将会开始感叹，想着为何又那么多烦恼，一直想不开，心就越窄，整个人也都开心不起来了。我们的生活，总是有这些事情。把它看成烦恼，你将会头疼,一直就走不出来，反而却越走越深。若你能退一步，望一望天空，天空确实是很辽阔，狭窄的应该是我们的心灵，我们的执着。是你的心态或想法把你绑得紧紧的，让你透不过气来。若是这样的话，为何不放松自己呢？心灵不值得为这些烦恼捆绑着。是吗？

海口

这是海口，海南。
这都是一集在这里拍的照片。在这里可以看到好多椰树,所以特产都有椰子糖果,椰子咖啡等等.海南位于中国的最南部,所以出产的水果啊或气候,和马来西亚蛮相同的,都有好吃的芒果,菠萝蜜,木瓜.只是size就有点迷你.:D

在这里都常听到人家说海南话,可是不会听.只是认识2,3个词汇,还是不确定音准不准确.因为都是以前外婆教过的那几句.在这里,也有好多由海南省外的到来这里工作.

住在这比较繁忙的市区,一直看见人来人往,好多车.在这里过马路,真的是要望前后左右,肯定了才好过.要有胆量和技巧才能过.应该是由于这样，在这里可以随时随地看见天桥，而这里的天桥都是“四通八达"的。讲到车,在这里总是会看到好多豪华汽车.:P 就像Audi,BMW,Merz。之前从未看过的气车都有。和 Malaysia 不同，在这里泊着的一行车子中，repeat 的牌子很多。:D

这里的食物还好，在这里通常都吃餐馆或炒饭。这里附近的一个小广场有一些小档口，经常都会闻到臭豆腐的味道。 :D 说到食物，还是非常想念马来西亚的食物。Roti Canai, Nasi Lemak, Bak Kut Teh, Kari Puff, ABC...想到都流口水。 :D

这就是我对海口的小小印象。
对了，海口也叫椰城，可是到现在还未试过她的椰子。:P 有机会再试一试。

活着就是幸福

有位朋友买了一本书。书名叫"活着就是幸福".那书名吸引了我，于是就拿起来翻了一下，看看内容。书后面是这样写着：

每天早晨醒来，看见第一缕阳光，确定自己的眼睛还能看见这个世界，这就是幸福。

走在撒满落日余晖的小路上，听得见欢快的鸟叫声，确定自己的耳朵还能听见凡间的任何声音，这就是幸福。

穿过一条小径，闻得见扑鼻的花香，确定自己的鼻子还能闻得见任何一种美妙的气味，这就是幸福。

看见喜欢的人，能和他说几句真心的话，确定自己的嘴巴还能吐出动听的话语，这就是幸福。

张开双臂，能够拥抱自己想拥抱的人，确定自己的双臂还能拥抱这个世界，这就是幸福。

迈开双腿，能轻快的走起来，飞快的跑起来，确定自己的双腿还能听话的行走和奔跑，这就是幸福。

每天早晨醒来，发现自己还能健全的存在着，确定自己真实的存在着，这就是幸福。

Deep Thoughts

Here I go again, contemplating life. Seeking for something, reaching out for an answer. Is life about seeking for more, seeking for satisfaction? If that so, what kind of satisfaction you're looking for? In this "realistic" world that we're in, it seems like we can't keep "materialistic" out of our life. For the things that we consider, most of them go around the dollar sign. From better job to better pay, to better car and better house, then to the better of living standard and then to the better life. Is this the "domino effect" type of achievement that everyone is focusing on? I'm not sure about that.

Some say being free is living life. Some say settle down to go through the stages of life. In the end, it's the no-definition that define's people's pondering. There can be no exact answer, I know. It all depends on each individual.

After all, should we be seeking for our own answers by asking, what matters the most? And from there, setting our tracks?

新年快到了

对了，新年快到了。小时候的新年，总是好热闹，好兴奋，还记得那种等待的感觉。妈妈都非常的忙，初一，亲戚们都会一起聚会，大吃一餐，多么的热闹。现在，外公外婆都不在了，渐渐的新年的那种意识，似乎从大家的脑中消失了。今年的新年，亲戚们纷纷都会去旅行。或许该说我老了，思想老土，感觉到年轻的一辈，若失去了那种对过年的意识，会好可惜。其实别说年轻的一辈，连前一辈的可能也失去了那种想继续保留那意识的观念。

现代的人都觉得，新年还不是一样，有没有回家，有没有一家人吃团圆饭，也没有什么所谓。渐渐的，住在远地方的，大家都少见面了。父母亲，开始觉得孩子们都长大了，大家都有自己的生活方式，过年，就一年比一年冷清了。那种热闹，那种开心的气氛，就这样消失了。好像让大家都了解，让大家都明白，那种大家都聚在一块的意义，一起过年的欢闹。

还记得外公常说，“树倒，猴子散 ”。我想这句话，倒是真的。就只有那么一年一次的聚会，就这么一丁点的华人传统文化，难道真的有那么难吗？若能聚在一起没什么意义的话，那一家人的意识中，什么才算是有意义的呢？我倒想了解。